Old Dog V
Walking in Faith
Bob Neumann
Dear Meri and the APList,
About a week ago i started to walk in an aspect i had never perceived. Quite frankly it was something i had hoped for, but was not what i had anticipated. It is not easy to do things that are questionable to your own understanding. More so when you know it will be both controversial and contentious to the point where you may alienate even those you care for.
Yet the assaults on your body, mind, spirit and family are such that everything is attempting to make you stop and only that “VOICE BEHIND YOU” keeps instructing. I know it is a job that must be done and no one else has done it.
As far as i know….and i had looked a long time…..
I was told it was time to make war.
I was told who the enemy was.
I was told what the enemy’s tactics were.
I was told to ”get it done”…..
No confirmations….no cute short cuts. Just those doubts that gut kick you when all you hear is silence after the first volley is fired. All i had was the awareness that it had to be done before “”KREMMLING””. As i shared with Marsha the news from the homefront is such that i might be coming alone and with a one way ticket. But that was not faith speaking….just the pain from the backlash my household is receiving.
I really do not have the faith to do this. never have….never will. All i have is a CAPTAIN who does things HIS WAY.
I sent out the First Assault on THE STRONGMEN entitled THE DIVINING SPIRITS…..even my friend Trey was not sure. and ABBA put us together almost 7 years ago. Now ABBA throws me a bone….from you Meri. I hope you will post this….but as always it is at you discretion. I know that you too have been ”feeling the enemy’s rage”.
Let’s go to your letter of this morning…..to finish my ”job” i need to address these issues.
We went to a local church tonight that was having a guest evangelist. He had a good message of encouragement. And then he called for the saints to come seek after God. Maybe it has been too long since I was in this kind of an atmosphere. There were so many preconceived ideas there about HOW to seek God.
At this point i think most of us can nod our heads in full agreement. We yearn for HIS PRESENCE corporately. We who know HIM want everyone else to also. Yet in spite of those ”preconceived ideas” they were not getting there. GOD was sure trying…..but
they did not succeed and could not ”find him”. ALL NOISE AND MOTION….JUST LIKE MT CARMEL AND THE PRIESTS OF BAAL. That is a ”one liner” Meri straight from the THRONE….hard one….
Where did they dig up this ”stuff”….not from GOD.
There was screaming and hollering and wailing…everyone trying to “press in to the supernatural” as the Evangelist put it. I had felt a restraint from going down to the altar and just sought God in the pew where I stood. He met me. Did I press in to the supernatural? While I have no idea what the guy was talking about or referring to, I knew my God and His presence clothed me and pressed in on me and brought to a place of increasing peace and rest IN HIM.
GEE SIS…..you answered your own questions. All this guy did was give a “good message of encouragement”. Falls far short of ”an anointed and timely WORD…..” don’t it. And why couldn’t he just say “press into GOD”…. there is a whole lot of supernatural that ain’t of GOD. And that is exactly what he was ”marketing”. Meri….DAUGHTER OF ZION….you were restrained from ”joining” with the Divining Spirits. And you ”know” that whatever is not HOLY is not of GOD. You who know HIM are not in darkness….you are ONE with HIM.
I quoted JAMES in just that….James 4:6-10
6 But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
8 Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse [your] hands, [ye] sinners; and purify [your] hearts, [ye] double minded.
9 Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and [your] joy to heaviness.
10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.
Oh Daughter of Zion you drew nigh to ABBA and ABBA pulls you in and won’t let go. The poor sheep were being told to draw on anything they could find in the supernatural. They did what they were told and got nada. Why? Should the evangelist be judged? Should the sheep have been treated better?
The evangelist kept saying…isn’t someone going to make contact with the supernatural? What realm he was referring to I don’t know.. I know he really wanted God…but the presence of God was flooding that place, and yet people seemed oblivious to it.
Meri, i thank ABBA for your tenderness. Did the boy even have a clue? Obviously he did not make contact….he had no PEACE….all he had was motions to go through. Meri…how can you serve GOD and call youself any title and not “KNOW” HIM? You say he really wanted GOD. IS ABBA SO HARD TO FIND.
Meri….people oblivious to ABBA….THE MOST HOLY SPIRIT is the norm. We all have struggled with it. Accept it sometimes. Mourn a whole lot about it. I was about to think that only I was sensing His mighty outpouring.
Then when nearly everyone was done… the piano player had changed, the evangelist was wandering around…He raised up a song. There were three voices that began to sing unto the Lord as someone quietly played as the Spirit moved at the piano. You know what? It didn’t change what anyone was doing. They went about their business as usual, talking and laughing while the beautiful song of the Lord wound its way through that sanctuary.
Meri…there are sheep among the GOATS….there is always a remnant. I really hope that this evangelist joined in the song. All there was of the remnant noticeable was a piano player….three voices….and you from how i am reading this.
Everyone else were busy doing ”stuff” to notice….or care.
There had been fire present early in the evening and healing, and now the sweet, sweet song of the Lord was raised up.. and no one paid any attention. Oh, Holly asked me if I was one of the ones singing.. but most just wandered out.. the evangelist sat talking with a hurting teen….
Looked like he found a place to do his ministry….but was it of GOD…. or a Divining Spirit that targeted an easy one? Where did he eventually press in? I’ll leave that with ABBA….
”There was fire present”….and it went out easily. Holy Fire does not go out easily. ”No one paid attention”….selah.
Others meandered out on their way home.. others joked and laughed…while the Song of the Lord was quietly and beautifully raised up. Finally the song ended, the piano quit playing. The presence of God was so powerful! But no one seemed to notice.
This surely is an indictment on so many….so many….
I felt encouraged to go ask the evangelist if I could pray for him….and he said yes.. and I did.. but while there was a sweet, sweet sense of his presence….I wasn’t sure if the young man didn’t miss that, too.
Once again you gave me my answer….he missed all THAT GOD HAD DONE.
This hurts SIS….how can we be so close and never notice?
For it wasn’t with great sounding words that I prayed or with great intensity….for I knew that it was God that was performing His word that I spoke so I didn’t have to add anything from out of Meri…but could quietly speak what God put in my heart. God wants to do something in this evangelist’s life…send a new anointing…but I am not sure he will receive it.
Sad….any anointing would seem to be new….but will he receive it? And we can not shove it down their throats can we??? I know….bad joke….desperate joke….
Maybe he is satisfied with what he had….don’t know.
How many times are we like this? God comes with something new and we don’t want it….we don’t recognize it…it comes in a different way, in a different vessel, a different form than we expect.
Meri, how about saying GOD comes and we do not notice?
Either because we had never ”met” HIM BEFORE….. or we had hardened our hearts till we could no longer see or hear HIM? Either way it is hard to cope with.
I doubt if anyone who interacts with the AP List has not had an experience similar to what you shared. All i keep asking is why? Now wherever you were had at least one pastor type hanging around….the original piano person and whatever worship team….where were they? Elders….deacons….5 folders….intercessors…. any saints?
Just three voices…. ABBA….SON….SPIRIT….. where were the people?
Not at HIS FEET it seems…..
Selah…..so i wonder why we are doing what we are doing sometimes. Maybe all the time….. because ABBA asks?
THE KING COMMANDS?
The SPIRIT of THE LIVING GOD LEADS?
Yup….no other reason to do anything is there?
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